MeganFS

Hmmm feeling really low again. Losing faith on how long its actually going to take for my back to heal. Im doing everything by the book. Taking the meds they tell me too, Doing vigorous excersise (no matter how much it hurts) when they tell me too, resting when they tell me too. Blah blah blah. But at the end of the day. Im fucking nineteen. Nobody i know at nineteen has this many problems. Maybe im sitting here feeling sorry for myself, Maybe im giving up. But the pain is relentless. And i do give up. Nobody understands (except the other cauda equina sufferers, and there arent any anywhere near me for me to talk to )